To Six Flags or not to Six Flags...

That is the question, whether it is nobler to suffer the walking and constant hunger or to spend time with the love of my life. The jury is still out.

I received an offer from my former beloved to go with him and my son this weekend to our nearby Six Flags. Don't get me wrong, I know that my company and presence is not desired only my ability to watch the stroller and change diapers. But I suppose if I'm gonna make it out of this town before the birth of the baby this is my last chance.
I want to go to watch my kid have the time of his life. But my mood swings, constant hunger and constant fatigue would be like asking a granny to participate in a marathon. It's possible but she might die after.
Again no clear decision. My mother thinks I should go if only to keep an eye on him. She doesn't realize of course that the one eye is probably all he would get.

Also my former b-friend informed me that he will no longer be able to shuttle our son around in his work vehicle, he claims someone got wind of the car seat in his front seat and he was asked to sign a doc telling him that vans are for professional use only. (Then why do they let him take it home each and every night?) He also said his truck is not long for this world the registration and insurance have lapsed. I told him to take my car whenever possible. Not out of state but in state is fine and he'll be very good with it I know.

The main issue between us is child support, he doesn't know that I filed against him. I've decided to go with the it will be a lot easier for him to pass me money line. At least he'll have proof and when discussing child support that judge will not discuss visitation. Basically if he wants to fight for visitation he'll do it on his own dime. I hate to admit it but if he can just pay me some money, continue loving my kid and pay for the next one, I'll be fine with that.
Who knows when they will serve him. I'm hoping it's soon I filed the first week of this month, and maybe in the 90ish days I'll have some support.
I wish all of this would cause him to get his life together. But I doubt that will ever happen.