On the insurance front well, I sent out some faxes to some of our current clients intro-ing myself and giving them the free report. No response yet, but if I ever got off my lazy backside and checked my message's I'd be sure of that.
So I'm tired cranky and everything else that goes along with that. I went to Six Flags again weekend before last and it was hot and exhausting. We made the trip in one day. On the way back I had contractions but I remember from the last I did that I might be a lack of fluids and I had the ex stop and get me some water. An hour after that i was fine but I went straight home instead of staying with my ex at his motel residence.
I'm not sure what is going on between us but when I insisted on going on this trip it seemed to open him to something. I had no intentions of letting anything ever happen between us again but as usual with his touch I turn into his favorite brand of jello and that's where I'll leave that. As if my life wasn't in enough turmoil. I'm not making any decisions until after the baby is born. And maybe not even then.
I think no matter how I make it romantic between us, the simple truth is that he is simply the last Coca-cola in the room. I'm not well versed in love and romance but what I am sure of is that past the passion I can't live with him. I love to take care of others but they in return must take care of me and my needs. It could be as simple as getting my oil changed or filling my gas tank. I need that. But he doesn't do those things and he has a way of making me feel less than an equal. I think in my mind I need to be in charge and not have to deal with someone who treats me less than that.
That's kind of mean.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment